Absence makes the heart grow fonder… So yea a lil distance is good.. You don’t have to see the person everyday in order to fall in love with them
Yesterday 9 Dec 2012 was awesome!! I don’t know why! Even though it’s just a supper!! And it’s our first time meeting up after soo longgg! Kakakakka! 😊 Hehehehehehe!!! He came to fetch me and went makan at upper thosome road!!! The food is not bad!! heheehe! Then was planning to go ECP or orchard to see lighting de!! Then i choose to go ECP!! But we were too in to our FRIENDLY TALKING that’s what he claim it is! But to me is mouth fighting! Hahahhahaa! And ended missed the entrances to ECP!! So he send me home after that… Wasted.. I wanna see seaside… It’s been so longg since i see seaside… I like sea breezes… But it’s alright!! Kakakakkaka! The whole time we were FRIENDLY TALKING non stop!! Keep shoot each other!! Hahahahaha! It was fun actually!! I thought it will be weird and awkward when meet up or what! But.. It’s not that way!! Everything went smoothly and better then i imagine! (: he’s kinda funny and nice!! He look exactly like the pics by the way! Hahahahaha! It feels nice and comfortable to be around of him!! Not like last time i’m with johnathan~ very stressed.. Hahahahaha! Me liking meow meow alittle bit more now… But i don’t want to fall in anymore… I don’t wanna be hurt!! :x haisss… :( vexed…. What to do… :(
4th December 2012!!
Epic and cute convo!! Wahahahahhaha!! I know it’s cute right ?! I mean maybe to me?! Hahahahha!! He also says cute ?! hahahaha!! i know it’s abit boliao but then it’s memories?!! i don’t even know next time will we even talk or not~ he going study all that~ maybe going Australia there for yearssss ~ also don’t know when he might be coming ~ maybe he not coming back, he might be staying at there le~ well!! I still hope all the best to him(: wahahahaha!! Although it’s abit sad but no choice !! What can he do? He’s studying there~ and what can i do? Nothing~ i also not his what and i’m in no position to do anything anyway~ hoping he will get what he always wanted!! And good luck to him in future!! Kakakakakka!! And i just can’t imagine we be tgt you know why? Because i don’t think i fit anyone at all…. 😞😢
If can .. Don’t ever reply me alright ? So i can let go of it… Even though we never met … But yeah.. I think the feelings is there.. But anyway! If you don’t wanna reply i’ll understand ! No worries!! I will also stop texting you and disturb you !! And i’m really so stupid and emotional … Ohmygod.. Cannot take it !! Why i’m so useless !! Arghhh!!!! I should really stop asking for love or relationship anymore !! Maybe i should remain single!!!!!!! Then i will be carefree !! Stressless !!! Haiss… I really shouldn’t starts liking someone … Because it always end up bad… Always… :(
My heart hurts like shit.. But ohwell! I’m not gonna care anymore. F it ! Screw it. Whatever it is ! I let myself fall and i’m gonna climb out of it myself. Yes. Myself.
Holding back what i wanna say.. Scaring i might be too over the line… And maybe i did the right choice … No guys like naggy and bossy girls… But… I’m worried about you.. Stupid dumbass bastard… :/
Ps. I THINK I LOVE YOU .. and i don’t know why.. I didn’t even saw you in real life before except pictures… We just chatted and it became like this… I don’t know what to do .. You seem to think we might not be tgt.. But i hope things will be different.. Because i never had this feeling before… Comfortable .. Nice .. Fun .. And mostly you made my day without fail .. (: i like you to worried for me.. I like you just the way you are.. You may think i’m crazy but maybe i am.. Both of us avoided the question when it comes to LOVE… Maybe because we both know it’s ridiculous to fall for someone who you didn’t even met yet and only by pictures and chatting.. But.. I think i’m ridiculous because i think i might like you.. I don’t want to give myself false hope… I don’t want… It’s not a nice feeling.. I hate that.. Someone you like didn’t like you and wanna remain as friend.. This isn’t what i want at all… But i shall let fate do it’s job(: if we are meant to be tgt we will.. No one could do us apart if we are meant to be tgt.. And i wish that come true.. Maybe it’s my wishful thinking but i don’t mind everyday everynight every hours every min every sec i have that wishful thinking.. I don’t want confess is because i don’t want ruin our current relationship which is friend of course lar.. I just don’t want lian friends also cannot be … (‘: