Sometimes i don’t want to say anything is not cause i don’t trust any of you or anything is because i have my own pride or maybe because i really don’t think there is a need to say.. somethings are better to left unsaid.. sometimes even telling you guys, you guys also don’t understand..
it takes up alot of courage for me to be able to open up to someone.. not everyone can be trusted though.. i have a big issue on trusting people.. LOL.
When i wanna do things it always messed up.. i hate it..
Baby, althought it’s only four month so far! But i know and i’m sure my lovee for yOu will never change because you are just too special for me and i cannot take it! HAHAHAHA! baby thank you soo much for what you have done for me! Always think of me first and always give in to me! I know i can be a bitch sometimes and baby didn’t xian qi wo i’m so glad! Hehehehehe! I’m so blessed to have you by my side! Sometimes i just wanna hugg you and never let go! You are the best thing that ever happen to me and i hope it stays like this forever! I’m sorry baby that i couldn’t get you anything.. didn’t manage to get you anything.. 😔 but i will try my best and get you something at least something that worth! I want to do at least something for you baby.. i feel so hopeless and helpless sometimes because i don’t have that kind of money to get you things.. but i will try my best and work and save to get you something!
Lastly! i lovee you So damn much baby 🙆💜 happy 4th month!!! 😘 #1704
Maybe i giving myself too much stress.. maybe i hoping too much on myself.. maybe i worried too much.. maybe i should give myself a rest.. i really hate being like this.. it makes me so pathetic and hopeless.. how to help myself when i don’t even know the reasons.. i don’t want because of me i ruin everyone’s mood especially baby.. i’m sorry baby.. i just can’t help it.. i tried but i couldn’t.. i still feel moody.. everytime i have to act like i’m fine when i’m not..
I hate it.. i hate being moody and crying unknowingly.. i hate it..
Some people asked me.. what happen to me.. why aren’t there smiles on my face anymore.. what happen to my happy go lucky attitude.. what happen to them.. why am i always look so sad now.. i’m not someone they knew anymore.. i’m not the person that i once was anymore.. and i will just smiles and walk away or i would even bother to say because i’m tired.. i really don’t know why.. 😔